This sweet image is by the incredibly talented Geninne D. Zlatkis. I happened across her work on Etsy, where she's got so many gorgeous prints for sale ~ it's hard to choose which are my favorites! This one seemed to have special significance for me though because the topic of Love has been on my mind.
Lately, I’ve been admiring the lives of married couples around me. Including some of the lovely relationships woven through the blogs of women I admire...
Kelly Rae & John
Alicia & Andy Paulson
Marisa & Sean at Creative Thursday
Emily & Josiah at the Black Apple
At 40 years old and having lived single for most of my life, I really long for the type of wonderful partnerships these folks have. I’ve certainly been coupled, even married once, but I’ve never had a real partner.
A friend of mine always says that by our age, we’re pretty set in our ways. We are who we will be and aren’t likely to change ~ implying that it will be near impossible to let someone “in” and find love, what with all the compromises it can sometimes take.
I maintain that when we stop learning & growing, we might as well be dead. I would hate to think that who I am now is exactly who I will be at 60 or 80. Plus, when you find the right person those compromises don’t seem to feel like much at all. I am so ready to grow together with a man who is confident & honest & kind and wants to have & be a partner.
I believe there are many people who could be “the one”. I don’t have a shopping list of attributes, because I’ve always been surprised at the qualities I enjoy in the few men I have been in love with. They never end up being the person I would have set out to look for. But some of those unexpected qualities are the things I’ve loved the most.
It seems to me that people who are happily married to their best friend can stand up a little bit straighter as they walk through life. I haven’t always felt this way. I know how to live very well as a single woman. I would rather be single & happy than unhappily coupled, so it’s not that I need somebody. I know how to feed my soul, care for myself, treat myself well. I don’t wait for an occasion to do special things. And I’m proud of raising my daughter by myself, buying us a home, and the fact that she & I still have a great relationship in the midst of her teenage years. But more & more I think how nice it would be to know that no matter how my day goes, there’s someone in my corner above all. I have good friends that love me and whom I love. But that’s not quite the same as having a husband to love & love you is it?
I hope this hasn’t seemed like I’m complaining. My life is very good ~ but I’m just ready for more. I celebrate the warm, loving relationships I see around me and my heart is so full for those of you that have them. I know I’ll have one too and I thought maybe saying it out loud (or in print I guess) would help get me there.
In my list for 2009 I said I wanted more romance. But I was just being vague. I want Love. I don’t know how it will come my way, but putting this out there to you reading it (& to the universe I suppose) feels like a step in the right direction. I like remembering that “Yet” is just one letter away from “Yes” if that makes sense. I’m excited to see what tomorrow will bring!
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